Failed and focus on the other side

April 12, 2021

Hi there, how are you? Hope you are doing well. Don't forget to get sleep enough and eat a lot to ensure you're always healthy. It has been a while I didn't write something here. Hmm I think it's an excuse if I said I'm too busy even it's almost true.

It's more into how I can get this habit back, to write everything that's in my mind. Since just now I saw a video and shared that, well, if you're overthinking you need to write. If you're underthinking, you need to calm and try to read a book. Then I remember, ah yeah, I can write it here. Whatever that what's on my mind.

Dear, so many, so many I want to share but too much and I lost a bit of my ability to make it in pieces. Well, however, allow me to share one by one.

Before we're going too far, you're in a good mood, right? Are you still reading this word? Just want to ensure your feeling in a very comfortable way and let's sit down together, allow me to share my story.

Allow me to share what I feel in my 25th, as a wife, a mother, a full-time employee, and still finding the right focus on developing things. In the last quarter, at the beginning of 2021, I wrote about my goal. Something goal that in a way, achieve-able if I work hard on it. 

  • Having a new hobby, like crafting or arts thingy, then kickstart to make it a small business.
  • Epic-come back to my work after 3 months of maternity leave. 
  • Completing the checklist of qualifications to enter FANG company. Such as get certified on things, I want to get AWS certification so bad, Amazon, wait for me!

If you think having those goals looks cool, nope, you're wrong. Having a goal is good, having too many it's not good. However, I try to cut it into pieces. In the 1st quarter of 2021, I'm taking the 1st goal. How I can initiate my hobby and kickstart my small business. 

You know, being a Leo, it's super on fire on the beginning and super undermotivated when it comes to feel bored or fuck off, this is not me, let's let it behind. And that's truly happening. For the last 3 months, I decided to close my shop after got at least 2 products sold. Sorry for my inconsistency, but in my deep heart, so happy to pass it by trying even though it's failed anyway. Rather than just having it on mind but have no chance to execute it.

So, what's next? Back to my goal list, I will be more focused on the 2nd and 3rd goals. Get my work done as an employee, achieved my monthly KPI game plan, and get certified on things. I will promise to myself to applying positive habits, such as writing, studying, taking notes, and doing things that achievable. Sounds like a plan right? Yes, me too, feel the same. 

Anyway, what I'm trying to say, it's okay to be failed and you can take focus on the other side. In addition, just a reminder, your happiness is the top priority. If the goal itself doesn't make you comfortable or happy, consider what's the best for yourself. Time is ticking, I just don't wanna let you regret what you've done for nothing. Cheers!

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